LOST

Maybe I can blame my low spirits on the time of the month, and maybe, if I can, I should. I'm twenty years old and had my mom pick me up from Philly yesterday because I missed her. At least I'm aware of how pathetic that is. I would be ashamed if I wasn't trying to start the habit of asking for what I want. So, instead of sitting alone at the corner cafe (the only place I get internet) I'm drinking coffee on my couch watching Golden Girls with my mom and dog.



The feeling of being lost, it's the worst. I've always justified acting by saying movies can help people, comfort them. I still believe that. I know I'll get there, but it's the road there that gets overwhelming. For so many it's a selfish art form... and that does more to my mood than pms. I could go on for pages as to what makes me mad about them or that kind of theater in general, but instead I'll talk about the solution I recently came to. Everyone loves to laugh (that's a generalization, sure, but stay with me here) so I'm tapping into improv. I don't LIKE doing dramatic things that will make people cry, I want to make people laugh. So my new goal is improvisation. It's still a baby of a plan right now, but I'm thinking about trying to find an internship in LA or NYC on a comedy show. This is my new goal. I'm not feeling quite so lost now that I have a game plan.


Thanks to my mom for helping every time I ever ask.

YOU ARE THE WORST!

I miss Libby!



I move back to Philly on Saturday. I hate the idea of not drinking coffee and watching Will & Grace and Desperate Housewives with my mom every morning. But, I am excited to be back in my city. I have loads of packing to do.

"Emotionally Booked"

Relationships.


Without doubt relationships have been the dominating theme this summer. Unfortunately I'm not talking about romance (but here's to hoping next summer will be a bit more plentiful in that regard). No, no... I'm talking about other ships. Friendships. Lifetime friendships- the type of friendships that stand the test of time, the friendships that never threaten to disturb the consistency of their presence, the friendships that despite fights and tears, always offer the feeling of coming home. Grateful doesn't encompass the extent of how I feel for the lifetime friends I have. I'm glad I followed my gut and stayed home this summer. The definition of every relationship in my life right now has been presented with crystal clarity. '


I talked to Nikki on the phone for over an hour last night. I'm astounded that we didn't form this friendship sooner. Her honesty and independence is refreshing and I'm so happy to have her.


I went for lunch with Nina this afternoon. She, in her unfailingly classy way said "The way I look at it, Kate, I have a million things going on in my life right now... and some people like to call it single but I prefer to call it emotionally booked." I may not have been lucky in the romance department but I have been overly blessed with friendships and though that doesn't fill the boyfriend void, it's much more dependable. And at a time in my life when nothing is concrete, I have a handful of people that will always answer the phone.


I'm officially Cecelia in FeFeu in the Philly Fringe Festival. Things are looking good.

Buggin'

Saved a lady bug tonight. Ultraluck? PLEASE!

I Been Wishin' About A Beach

I'm really liking these pictures.








Only a few days left until I go back to Philly. Like briliant clockwork, every time I start moving, the thought of leaving family and friends makes it almost impossible.